A Mother's Rant: August 2006

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

Feelings...nothing more than feelings...

I'm feeling a little sad. I only have about a week more to spend with Jeanette and then I will be alone all day (and most evenings) again. I'm really not trying to be "Oh, poor Debra". I will just miss hanging out with her most days. It's been fun.
I have applied for 24 different positions in the Beaverton School District. I'm a little tired of hitting my head against that door, when it doesn't open. I'm not sure what to do. I keep thinking that the right job will come along and I will be glad that I waited. But right now I just want to have some encouragement. Maybe if I got a call for an interview and I didn't get the job, at least I would know that my applications haven't been going into a black hole.
I really am not depressed! It was a really wonderful day. I went to the Temple this afternoon and had a wonderful experience (ask me about it). It was a beautiful 70-something day and I really am feeling great.
Love to you all.

Monday, August 14, 2006


I had a bad dream last night. I dreamt about Clifford. Normally that would be good, but in this case it was not.
I think Clifford was in the astronaut program, but he was "weight listed", in my dream that meant that he had to gain some weight or he was out of the program. We were at a restaurant and all these guys were telling him what to do to gain weight. One of them gave him what looked like a joint. I didn't see it until we were out in the parking lot and he put it in the pocket of his flight suit. I was telling him not to do it, because if they found out, he would get kicked out for that and that would be a lot worse. But he was just ignoring me. He got in his really cool car (it looked a little like the car in Batman Begins, only it was red and smaller) and left. And I had to find my car in the dark parking lot.
I know Clifford would NEVER do anything like that. So that's a comfort. But it was an awful feeling. Love to you all.

Tuesday, August 01, 2006


Richard is gone for a couple of days. So Jeanette and I decided to party down. We invited Jackie and Sapphire over. We played a rousing game of Rook (Sapphire and I won) and then watched "Better Off Dead" with a very young John Cusack, and part of "Sandlot". By this time it was midnight and Sapphire was falling asleep so we quit the movie and Jackie and Sapphire went home and Jeanette and I went to bed.
A fun time was had by all.
Love to you all.