Sad and Bitter

Feeling a combination between bitter and sad. I am leaving the elementary school I've worked at for a year and a half. In that whole time I have been a sub. Yes, you can be a substitute for a year and a half, who knew. The child that I was an IA (Instructional Assistant) for is going to another school into a smaller Special classroom. I will be at the new school for a couple of weeks so that she will be able to transition a little better (we hope).
I'm sad because I will miss the kids that I have gotten to know in the last year and a half. Not just my little girl, but all of the kids.
Bitter, because I don't understand why I am not hired by the school district. It's not like I'm not a good worker. I have never had a bad reference. EVER.
I also know that one of the reasons that she is going to the other school in a Special classroom is because it is cheaper than having a one on one aid. It may end up being really good for her, I don't know. But I do know that it was a monetary decision on the part of the school district. She was making progress in our classroom, she has friends there that she is going to miss and that are going to miss her, and that also makes me sad.
Love to you all.

Thankful

Maybe I am late to do this post, but you know what they say, "Better late than never". Although what my dad used to say was, "Better never late". I don't think that it is ever too late to be grateful. So here goes.
First and foremost, I am grateful for my wonderful husband. He is very loving and understanding of my and my foibles. He has been and continues to be, a wonderful father to our three children. A truly honorable man in every sense of the word.
I am thankful for my three children. They have made such good decisions for there lifes that I am amazed that I have been given the opportunity to be their mother. They are always an example to me.
One of the decisions that two of my children have made is in spouses. I am so grateful for the son and daughter-in-law that I have. I don't think I could have chosen better (although I tried). What great kids, all five.
I am thankful to have a job. I know that I am very blessed in this as a lot of people don't have jobs, even temp jobs like this one. I am thankful for the kids I work with, they make me laugh every day and my heart melts more everyday that I am with them. I am really going to miss them when school is out.
My home. It's not much, but it is ours. It is very comforting to know that this house is ours, not ours and the banks'. I am glad that I had a husband that planned for the future. In a time when I wanted a bigger house he saw the wisdom of keeping our modest home.
I am sure that there are lots more that that I can write about, but for now that will do.
Love to you all.

Kindergarteners are the best!

It is only my second day subbing at the local elementary school and I had a little kindergarten girl wave at me while I was getting kids on the bus. She waved in that way that said "Bye, Teacher" with her whole arm. I loved it. I said that I would see her tomorrow. You can't buy that kind of devotion. I would love to have it everyday. But alas, it will only last this week.
Love you all.